pocket brain

Every time I think about having kids I remember this orphanage that I used to visit, specially this little 3-year-old girl I met there. She had a huge scar covering her belly from top to bottom, and the social worker told me it was her mother who had done that to her. She was so traumatized she never spoke, but her eyes had this urge for attention and love that made me want so badly to take her home with me. Well, maybe someday I will.

Why chasing shadows when you are surrounded by light? The love for the unknown will always surpass the comfort of traversed paths. But to what extent do we really get to know these paths? There is always a dark corner where secrets are kept well hidden from passers-by.

Scattered across the floor, shards of glass reflect the sunlight, forming a prism of emotions. All colours of feelings dance on the wall, in patterns of joy and despair.

The cold screen emits a spectral light, bringing with it electronic ghosts. Out there, the sun shines an even more impossible reality, longing for beaches and waterfalls. In the mirror, the image of someone on the verge of something to happen, only awaiting for the inevitable. And underneath the sight, a thick layer of memories and oblique thoughts. (03-08-2012)

The most difficult thing about loving someone is learning how to let them go. We are humans, therefore animals, and we can never control to whom we are attracted, it is just impossible. Dealing with rejection is always a problem, for we tend to turn love into hatred and good feelings into depression. But how to overcome such powerful emotions? Unfortunately there is no magical formula, but loving yourself is a start. If you want to be ok, why not wish them to be ok too? After all, if you love them you should want them to be happy, with or without you. Hold no grudges, it is better for your health. It is not easy, but it is worth trying.

I love you but I met someone else It`s not me, it`s you she`s poisonous Be careful, he is trouble I thought what we had was special hush baby, don`t cry you`ll get over it I like her, she`s nuts We`re nuts! (Kenny G playing in the background)

It is indeed just a matter of perspective. Sitting here by myself, listening to this beautiful Velvet Underground song, in this perfect weather, I see life as it is. Full of sound and fury, but also full of possibilities, you just have to have the right disposition to look at it and see the big picture. It is not so difficult after all. It is so simple that we refuse to see it that way. Being outdoors help, it's easier to see the big picture when you're looking up to the sky. Value those who value you and don't be afraid to be yourself and speak your mind. It will attract those who are like minded and repel those who aren't; you don't need them anyway. And never be afraid to love, it is one of the few things that can make you feel truly alive.